I’ve been doing some serious thinking about “femininity” lately…
Is my perception of the feminine woman unique to me only, or to only a certain “clique” of women?
What is at the core of femininity and what makes it different to masculinity?
Is feminine energy a real thing both genetically and emotionally?
Can “feminine energy” be expressed in what is generally perceived as “masculine energy”?
I don’t know if I am the person best to decide what is “masculine” and what is “feminine”. Is it a matter of sex, or perception? Is it only to do with that empty feeling inside of us that is best satiated? Perhaps, some of us are just wired positively or negatively, masculine or feminine, and we are drawn to a certain “pole” regardless of our birth sexual assignation.
That sounds pretty good, but it also places me in another quandary. If my work is devoted to helping women find their femininity, does this then become a contradiction, because I would be devoted to helping both men and women (who are femininely wired). I would also be saying that half of my target market (half of women), are not my target market at all, as they are positively wired (masculine females), and therefore could not benefit from my instruction on femininity.
You may think so, but you would be wrong. This proposition takes a catastrophic collapse when I tell you that I consider myself positively wired. Yes, I am a masculine female and I am coming out.
Does that mean I am attracted to feminine females and am, by default, a Lesbian? Unfortunately…. no! It seems that they were correct when they said that your sexual orientation and your sexual assignment really have nothing to do with each other.
I said “unfortunately” because, at times, I have thought that my life would be more interesting if I were gay. I would have so much to share on YouTube and my anxiety could be accounted for through traumas due to lack of understanding about my sexual orientation.
So, in essence, I have been saying for most of my life, that there are both masculine females and feminine females, and conversely masculine males and feminine males. As someone who identifies as being a masculine female (gulp), I can only speak for myself when I say that I am somehow satisfied and soothed when I take a little sojourn into the feminine for a while. It is an active, vibrant, and genuine feeling which assures me that feminine energy is indeed a powerful connection in which women…. and men…. can access a sastifying and soothing energy.
What proof do I have that “feminine energy” actually exists? None, really. All I have is the understanding that I am emotionally soothed through the feminine energy at work within, and I am physically charged through my masculine energy. You know, some things you just know that you know that you know that you know… (You get the idea).
This is not an article about confronting that which “knows” within me. Let me remain ignorant and totally satisfied in the knowledge that this is a universal “truth” which is echoed by the feminine force throughout the world. I’m going to have to let someone else do the science of the experience. I am only reporting upon its existence.
I guess it comes down to just one question:
“Do I believe in the emotional strength that one feels through femininine “play”?
You betcha.
I do.
Do you?
It’s not too big a leap to think that we receive certain brain rewards when we access those behaviours which are typically referred to as “feminine”. Be it certain synapses which fire in some really clever way. Let’s leave all that to the scientists out there, but it doesn’t sound too “out there”. In fact, I think that I could convince a jury that a person experiences a rush of good “feelings” when they engage in acts which are compassionate, thoughtful, and tender. Not too big a leap at all.
If you have read all of this, I know that your own mind is screaming with responses to some of the questions that I have posed.
Share with me…